Do you ever get that feeling where-You don’t wanna talk to anybody?You don’t wanna smile and you don’t want to fake being happy.But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE.You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all u can do is wait.
Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall.My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall.Cos I know i’ll never free my soul.It’s trapped between true love and being alone.When my eyes are closed the greatest story told..I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor..!!
The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every gal I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else..!!
But today when I see you being with some else..I just can’t myself burning from inside.I never thought I’m ever going to see such phase of my life..I’m still fighting and I know one day I’m going to get over you.Still thought of doing some good for you..
Tried to be with you in every sense but atlast i knew you are not there with me.
You wanna know what the truth is? I still love her…and I probably will love her for a very long time…but I cant just be your buddy because as much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality its a like keeping a dead dog for few hours and I’m just not willing to participate in it..so right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you.
whatleftofme 
except for the fact that you have missed a word in the sentence that begins with * but today…… * it is awesome! this is by far the most descriptive and the best post i have read in yours! keep up the good writing and because i was hoping to see you write more often, though your post are filled with agony and sadness, i still look forward to read your posts! please do write often! 🙂