Forbidden Memories

You can’t get all the people together in this world whom u really like and can stay together and forever the same… I guess and I think its doesn’t work.. Someone would leave.. Someone always leave.. You left me.. And now its my turn to leave you in the grave of the memories.. Its too difficult to say good byes.. And I really hate good byes..Its been ages I haven’t written not even tried.. But these depressing moment are the dark night taking over the sunlight in the dawn.

There are things we never want to let go of.. People whom we never want to leave behind but we have too..
I know I’m searching for something. Something so undefined.. That can’t be defined.. That it can be only be seen by the eyes of the blind even in the middle of the night.. I was that much blind in my love for you..!!

Taking a walk by myself with nobody to talk to, only music to listen to, and no phone to text make me feel good.                                                        This is how i’m now.. Don’t need anyone..!!

Under One Umbrella

The paper burns, but the words fly away

Do you ever get that feeling where-You don’t wanna talk to anybody?You don’t wanna smile and you don’t want to fake being happy.But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE.You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all u can do is wait.

Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall.My mind is running wild tryin hard not to fall.Cos I know i’ll never free my soul.It’s trapped between true love and being alone.When my eyes are closed the greatest story told..I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor..!!

The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every gal I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else..!!

But today when I see you being with some else..I just can’t myself burning from inside.I never thought I’m ever going to see such phase of my life..I’m still fighting and I know one day I’m going to get over you.Still thought of doing some good for you..

Tried to be with you in every sense but atlast i knew you are not there with me.

You wanna know what the truth is? I still love her…and I probably will love her for a very long time…but I cant just be your buddy because as much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends” in reality its a like keeping a dead dog for few hours and I’m just not willing to participate in it..so right now what I wanna do is just move on and get over you.

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Morning After this Night

At nights sometime i feel like an emo..I like to walk on dark roads alone thinking about life..I just know one thing its me who live it,its me who has to face,its me who has to survive.When i look at stars i want to see diamonds twinkling in the dark but what the fuck its the dead image of yours which is rooted in my mind that i see you staring at me.I blink trying not to see you suddenly everything is blurred- MYSELF, THE PATH,World even the STARS…Heart drops rolled down my cheeks and i feel numb  but then i realize as it drops down-A STONE- inside in a shore waiting to be blown away with the winds but if I’m too heavy to get washed away sediment on a bay.My tears run down like razorblades..I’m no one to blame you or is it because of me?And there’s no sense in playing games.One day it’s heaven, one day it’s hell.I know It’s not a fairy tale but please take it from me leave my life alone that the way it’s supposed to be.Each day is just like grain of sand and my life is passing without you.Could You Please leave me alone.

I dun know why the fuck people hurt each other..I think you did it intentionally..I know your memories is rotten inside me..When i try to get away from the shore of sorrow and sadness i don’t know why the fuck those tides of darkness touches my feet and left me feeling that I’m living in hell..I fucking tired of doing this every time being nice and loving you..No i can’t do it any more..It hurts it hurts a lot..I know the pain of being lonely even i started loving it.. but why the fuck you have to come and fucking cut me into pieces every time.. You really don’t have an idea once a heart is broken into pieces its hurt but when again those broken pieces are brutally rutted down into pieces it hurts a lot..

i have tried for moving on and decided that i don’t want any like you..Because i always wanted you..But leave it..Its me who has to understand..May be tomorrow will bring a new ray of light with happiness..

Darkness was never my friend but if today I’m living in it then please darkness be my pillow & take my hand,let me sleep in the coolness of your shadow & the silence of your deep..I know the idea of being with yourself can be scary because it is the doorstep of loneliness..But sometimes you just love it.

I hope to lose myself for good..I hope to find it in the end..Not in me but in you..